school's out for the summer and work has begun. i tend to love my job a lot, as i find working with kids to be absolutely rewarding. it is amazing how much children can change in a day, a week, a month, or a year. i have been at my job for almost 8 months, and the changes i have seen in the kids i work with over those 8 months are amazing. while some have changed for the better and some for the worse, they have all changed and i have played witness. i am so excited to graduate from college and to find a teaching job so that i can witness these changes everyday.


recently i have been longing for some things that i know i shouldn't be wanting at this point in my life. so many of the people i went to high school with are getting engaged, married, and having kids. while i knew this would happen eventually, i never dreamed that three short years after walking the halls of Kennedy high, i would see so many people making these changes in their lives. what surprises me the most is how jealous i am of them. i honestly cannot wait to be married and am so very excited to have kids of my own. i know that i am going to be a great mommy someday and i cant wait for that day to come.


part of me screams when i have these urges to get married, to look at rings(looking never hurt anyone!), to want to go dress shopping, to want a kid of my own, etc. as i have always wanted to be settled in my career and out of debt from school before taking huge steps in life. i know that deep down inside it is best to finish school, start my career and get my life on track before involving kids of my own, but there will always be that desire in the back of my head. i guess i am just very excited about growing up and seeing what my life will entail.